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To preface, I am a Debian user, not a Neon user, but I imagine this will still work on Neon given it's based on Ubuntu, but I too have had Discover mess up updates and I've found that simply trying to update again with nala just works.
Lumelore
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I hope you get the results you're looking for with your SRS! It's got to feel amazing to finally get that, dysphoria is such a shitty thing.
[Image Transcription]: Snoopy wearing a wizard hat making potions. Top text says "HOW TITTY SKITTLES IS MADE." Bottom text says "BOTTOM TEXT." In smaller font beneath bottom text it says in parentheses "i'm a bottom colon three."
Lumelore
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Thanks for the reply! It's definitely interesting to see how varied everyone's timelines are. I am learning that I developed quite quickly so I am considering looking more into getting a Klinefelter's test too. I hope you get the results you're hoping for on your test!
Lumelore
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I wanted to get tested to see my starting levels, but my endo said it wasn't necessary so I didn't get one.
I really appreciate the information about androgen insensitivity syndrome, this my first time hearing of it, and I think it's quite possible that I could have it.
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Thanks for the reply. I always assumed that because it showed a range it was the earliest possible start time to the latest end time for some reason, but yeah it makes more sense that they are averaged and very general.
So I'm wondering if I might have klinefelter's (XXY chromosomes) or if I'm just very receptive to estrogen because the effects of HRT happened to me way faster than I've heard other people say it happened to them. I've seen charts like these and I am a bit dubious of them because my timeline doesn't match up at all.  I don't know if my experience is actually normal or not, but when I started estrogen about a little over a year ago, it only took a few days for me to notice my skin being softer, and then literally the next day I woke up with breast buds and about 2 to 3 weeks later I had noticeable breasts that were big enough that it was difficult for me to boymode at work. I'm pretty sure I got to Tanner stage 3 in like half the time that's expected. From what I've heard from others is that they didn't get breast buds until at least 3 months in and that made me question why mine happened so quickly. I've also always been pathetically weak and it's also always been difficult for me to gain muscle. Which makes me think I had low testosterone even before I started spiro. I remember when I had my 3 month follow up, my t was at 89 ng/dL and I remember my doctor commenting that that was lower than he expected, although I have zero idea if that is actually lower than normal for 3 months on 100mg spiro. I'm curious if any of you also experienced a similar timeline to me, or if your timeline fits the charts that I've seen. I know my timeline is quite fast and that it might be hard to believe (idk if my experience is normal or not), but I swear it is my genuine experience with HRT.
Lumelore
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You can totally do it! It takes a lot of practice and dedication, and yes, you are going to sound off at first but that's normal.
I suspect the reason your voice didn't sound as feminine as you wanted is because you need to brighten your resonance more. Even with a deep pitch, a bright resonance will make your voice sound noticably more feminine.
The other thing it could be is perhaps your voice was too breathy, because it's not natural sounding and it's an easy mistake to make. I even made that mistake myself when I started out.
Lumelore
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Pitch actually doesn't matter too much. Like others in this thread have said, resonance is way more important.
For example, it's actually really difficult for me to talk in my old voice, because I haven't used it in such a long time. While I can get the pitch down if I try hard enough, I can't do the same for my resonance, so my voice still sounds somewhat feminine even when I'm talking in a low pitched voice.
I never practiced for a set amount of time. I'd just do it kind of randomly whenever I felt like it. Usually I would practice at night when I was having trouble sleeping, but I'd sometimes do it while driving as well.
Also random hot tip: Have a word that you can say really well in your feminine voice that can be worked into any sentence, such as um or like, because then you can use it to recalibrate when you feel your feminine voice starting to falter.
Lumelore
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Sometimes frustrating, sometimes fun, but it really depends on what I'm doing and if there are any tutorials available. Retopology has never been a good time but I do enjoy messing around with shaders.
Lumelore
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Yep. Multiple times I have had Google maps direct me to back employee only entrances instead of the regular entrances. Sometimes it seems like Google doesn't even recognize that the front entrance even exists.
Lumelore
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I actually just looked it up and was going to edit my original comment but you already replied! Lol anyways, what I found was this:
Anatomically, penile and scrotal skin have no self-lubricating potential, though penile inversion vaginoplasty may produce some sexually responsive secretory fluid when urethral tissue is incorporated and lubricating genitourinary accessory glands are retained.
From this source: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/37105933/
Lumelore
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That's interesting. I've only heard from people who got PI that theirs is always dry. I am aware that the shaft can secrete fluids, but I didn't think it could be that much.
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Yes, I am referring to multiple different surgeries. The colon one is a sigmoid vaginoplasty. I am also aware that a vaginoplasty can be performed without PI. However there are surgeries that use PI and then use peritoneum to add additional depth.
This link here is to a surgery that uses PI and the peritoneum.
Lumelore
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Yes, and also the one where they use a piece of the colon, unless I am mistaken, that also uses penile inversion.
Lumelore
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There are multiple ways vaginoplasties are done. One is penile inversion, which results in a dry vaginal canal. Others use penile inversion plus some moist tissue so that the vaginal canal isn't dry. Sometimes this tissue secretes excess fluid and that's what the liners are for.
Lumelore
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Yeah, I forgot that there are different variants better suited for cis women. I'm pretty sure you're correct that she does need something a bit different.
Lumelore
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I am a trans woman so I understand how it feels to not have the hormones you want in your body. It's literal hell. You are allowed to have your own feelings, and there's nothing wrong with that. Your wife's mental state is just in the gutter right now and that's why she's lashing out at you.
I'd recommend seeing a professional so she can get prescribed estradiol. That's really the only thing that's going to fix it.
Lumelore
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Congratulations! I've been considering getting a vaginoplasty, but I am worried about the maintenance, such as dilating. Do you find it to be a lot of work or cumbersome at all?
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I love the type of gameplay that the Sims (specifically building and character creation, other stuff is boring af) has but it sucks so much to play because it's so limited unless you spend thousands on all the dlc. I am a game dev (well, I call myself that but I've never released anything cuz I'm too busy with finishing up college rn) and I really want to make a life sim game one day. I've seen plenty of indie life sims fail unfortunately, but I'm still going to try anyways. I have a few ideas I haven't seen anyone else do. So many of these games fail that I'm not afraid to try something a bit crazy and hope it sticks.
As of a few days ago, I am now 1 year on HRT! I typically don't like posting pictures of myself, but I also wanted to make a transition timeline and share my progress, so here it is lol.  Estrogen is amazing. I finally feel like my body is mine and something that I need and want to take care of. Sometimes, I randomly think about my gender and being a woman and it makes me so happy, but overall I don't really think about my gender as frequently as I used to years ago. I also started progesterone last month and luckily I am one of the people that respond well to it. My overall mood has significantly improved since I started it, and it also helps me sleep a lot better. I am now waking up early in the morning feeling energized which is something I have not experienced in a very long time lol. I've also been working on my voice as well. I did make a post here about 6 months ago where I asked for feedback on my voice (which was really breathy and did not sound good). I think I have improved quite a bit since then. I'd really appreciate your feedback on it if you would like to critique it. [My voice training progress](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2hA1QkZRJM) (youtube link)
First one was in a marching band, second one was in an IKEA float. 
This is easiest done by sorting by Top of 1 hour, so there are only a few posts to scroll past. When you get all the way to the bottom where there are no more posts to load, try scrolling down. While you do that, any NSFW image that currently has a blur over it will have the blur squished vertically towards the center, allowing you to see the top and bottom of the image unblurred.
I am using kubuntu and recently my .desktop files no longer launch from my desktop. If I go to ~/desktop in dolphin I can double click the same files and they launch just fine from there. When I do try to launch from desktop it just shows a blank file icon very briefly. Only new thing I've done since they stopped working is install virt-manager and QEMU to set up a Windows vm. I also tried creating a new user and the problem still persisted, which means it is not anything in my home directory. I've tried googling but haven't found anyone with the same problem as me.
I'm currently studying CS and I'll get my bachelor's degree next year. I've been searching for remote SWE internships for months now and have not had any luck. I even made a project to put on my resume and it's still just rejection email after rejection email. Maybe I need more projects? What tips do you have for getting an Internship? I really don't want to go back to my previous job cause working with old people in rural America as a minority is literally hell. I think I might just go into omega debt instead lol.
I'm working on a website that compiles a bunch of trans resources into one place. I made an "Am I trans?" page which has a link to the article on the gender dysphoria bible of the same name. I also remember some other websites, but I can't find them. I think they were called something along the lines of Am I a girl? and there were other variants of it for transmascs and nonbinary people. I think I remember seeing the link on the transfem community, but I'd have to scroll through months of comments to find it. I thought I would check here first in case anyone has the link saved so I don't have to sift through all those comments. Edit: I just found it! It's called "Turn me into a girl" and not "Am I a girl?". Here's a link to it: https://turn-me-into-a-girl.com/
Was looking through an old hard drive today and I found some old pictures of me from before I transitioned. I only have a few of them because I didn't like taking pictures of myself back then (hmm, I wonder why? /s). I thought about deleting them because I don't like how I looked back then, but in a weird way they also made me happy. I think it is because they serve as a reminder as to how far I have come in the four years since I realized that I am trans. Comparing them with current pictures of myself, it is very obvious that I am much happier now. I also found some old picrews that I made of myself shorty after I realized that I am trans. These made me really happy for multiple reasons. One is that they brought back a lot of memories. The other is helped me figure something out. I've been trying to figure out exactly when I had the realization and the best I had beforehand was sometime in late 2019, but those pictures are dated October 28th which makes them the earliest evidence of me being trans that I have. I made like thirty of them but here are two of them that I like. Past me would be so happy to know that I actually look like this now:  This is an image that I think I used to come out to a few people. It's hard to see, but I decided to add some estradiol to my mouth:  Anyways, I just felt like sharing. I'm curious if anyone else also used picrew at first to explore their gender. Also if you have any transition related stories you feel like sharing, I'd love to read those too.
I'm not an egg anymore, but I found this meme I made several years ago when looking through an old hard drive and wanted to put it on Lemmy. Image description: Top text says "Me: 100% totally cis male." Bottom text says "Also me: A girl with girl stuff and girl hair and girl clothes." The bottom part is actually an image of a Minecraft skin that is posted on Planet Minecraft.
So for the past few months, usually near the beginning of the month, I will have a few days where I am super depressed and emotional. Today is one of those days. It started off with me waking up crying at 2 am for no reason and I was literally sobbing for 2 hours before I was able to fall back asleep. Then I waking up, I felt super depressed. I have not felt this much depression since I started taking an anti-depresant 5 years ago. I hardly ate anything today and I pretty much just layed around. I tried working out for an hour, and even that couldn't make me happy. I am assuming that this is going to happen again next month, and idk what to do cause it is super debilitating. Asides from these few days, I am very happy otherwise. I have been on hrt for 5 months now, I'm hoping maybe prog will help with it once I'm able to get it. I don't know how to manage it until then since my usual coping mechanism isn't working and I also don't know if prog will even solve it in the first place.
CW Ever since I came out to my mom several years ago, she's been supportive on and off, which I don't really understand why she is just _sometimes_ supportive. When I first came out to her, she told me she was proud of me, and then minutes later she told me that I would be ugly and never find love. She's never purposely misgendered or deadnamed me though. Although for a while after I came out she was mourning me and acting like I had died and it was really weird and creepy to me at least, but about 2 years after that she told me that she finally sees me as her daughter. When I had asked her if I could get puberty blockers or estrogen she told me no, which I had asked her that many times. So I decided to save up and finally this year at 20 I got HRT, but then she suddenly decided that she wanted to pay for it and that made me a bit upset because if she was going to pay for it then I could have gotten earlier, but I still appreciate that she is paying for it. I had asked her if I could get voice training lessons a few years ago she was very adamant about me not doing them. Recently I have decided to do voice training on my own and the other night she complemented my voice and then tonight she told me that I actually sound like an alien and that my masc voice is perfect. We were good for a while and I thought she was done with being unsupportive occasionally but I guess not. I don't really know what I'm feeling rn, I guess disappointment and maybe sadness idk. This what my voice sounds like rn if you were curious: https://on.soundcloud.com/hsR5W This link isn't working in some of my lemmy clients for some reason. If it's not working for you you might have to paste it into Firefox.
Went to get a prescription today (not hrt, a different drug) and this guy tried to cut the line and the pharmacist said "sir, **she** is in line next" and it made me sooo happy. (And then I was sad that I had to use my legal name to get my script, but overall happy for getting gendered correctly)
I'm looking for other transgender people to be friends with. I used to be antisocial but now that I have been on e for a few months I feel so much better and I want to find some friends to play games with like Minecraft, Terraria, and Spelunky. I don't really know where to make friends but doing it locally isn't an option because I live in the middle of nowhere unfortunately.
This is my 5th week on hrt (2mg estradiol, 100mg Spiro) and I first noticed breast growth and pain right at the end of the 1st week. Then for the next two weeks my breasts were pretty painful and even leaked sometimes. Now last week they suddenly stopped hurting completely for the entire week, however today they are a tiny bit sore. So my question is, is it normal for breast pain to come and go? The breast pain made me very euphoric, so I don't like that it disappeared for a week.